my normal

As I begin this week, I realize that I haven't a clue how I will make it through the hoops. Pressures from every side are bearing down. Homework, emotionality, projects, fun, chores, appointments, opportunities, missed busses, laughter, tormenting communications, backtalk, disparagement, loneliness, idiocy, aspirations, hope, let downs, wishing, wanting, finances, broken hearted. What a mixed up mess of things this life has become. And yet, somehow this is my normal. And I must find a way to be happy in the midst of it.