unexpected

Crushing
A word that does something
Paralyzes, suffocates, changes
While being nothing but a canker sore

In this experiment (life)
What does it take to turn
Crushing
Into forward motion
Friendship
Something healthy for everyone

Crushing of pride
Setting aside the wants of one
For the sake of all
Breaking down
Why you even care
And holding onto your answer
Like the love you wish
You were given

Reaching for more
From yourself
Being kind when you want to cry
When your instinct is to fight
For what you want
Because that's right to do

But you realize you don't want
Someone who doesn't want you in return
And that unexpected realization
Crushes you anew

Redefining your wishes
Paralyzing in new ways
Wondering, watching, never expecting
Anything anymore

Not even friendship