to and fro

Where did you go, my dear, my darling friend?

Are you lost going to and fro in the dark, dark night?

I never thought there could be an absolute end, 

From sharing one heart to this deafening dark washed out in blinding light. 

Your love's loss takes my breath and bites

With a sharpness I can hardly stand; 

I can only think to stand and fight

For the chance to once again have you hold my hand, 

My friend, the owner of the love I never planned

To give away so freely and for eternity,  

That light at the end of the tunnel was a contraband

That we never paid the toll on for our steadfast amity.

Where have you gone?

I have stood here too long.