From last slice to this one, I am seriously gaining confidence in my teaching abilities. There have been some mess ups and uber tough days, but I am no longer feeling like an impostor aka a major poser of a teacher.
My brain seems to only process what it can handle. I know this because as soon as I began to feel capable as a teacher, the other issues in my life began to make their way through the crowd. Well, actually, the timelines are just aligned perfectly in a sick sort of way and they are all approaching rapidly. The calendar has always been what it is. The mental strain of it all cannot be described properly. And I don't know how I will take care of everything all by myself and everything turn out as it should.
And that, my friends, is where my faith and prayers come in. I don't believe in sitting on my hands because I prayed, but I will tell you that when the deck is stacked the way it is right now—the only way I can succeed will be because of a faith-promoting miracle occurring. Hard work and determination can take you far, but it cannot accomplish the unaccomplishable.
And by the way, anyone who wants to lend me some prayers between now and December, especially through October, I will count you an angel. I need all the faith, prayers, and positivity that a person can get.
I am not sure what is happening, but I know you will get through it. I don't think you are 'sitting on my hands' because you prayed. Prayer allows your mind to open and see things you have not been able to see because of stress. I have always enjoyed reading your posts and will be sending you positive energy through my words. Take time, be it only five minutes, for you...a quiet time...pray, and open your mind...relax the tension and breathe. My thoughts will be with you. Jackie http://familytrove.blogspot.com/
ReplyDeleteTHOUGHTS, PRAYERS, HOPES and even a virtual to you.
ReplyDeletePS When I have TOO much happening, I TRY to just focus on the next "cut point" and SOMETIMES it helps keep the stressors under wraps!