regret

The struggle seems light from this vantage point
It was all worth it looking back in hindsight
Feeling celebratory and smiling in the end
Yet, despite the happiness, I am feeling something more--
An abiding sense of regret

No regret for my actions
No regret for how things are now
Only a small hint of regret,
Better still--a haunting whisper of regret
A tangly, messed up, sharp and painful twinge of regret

Regret for the crossroads that we happened upon
Regret and disappointment in the directions we went
On our merry ways--never to cross happy paths again
Regret for the bitterness and anguish of heart
Of which I never dreamt I'd taste


1 comment:

  1. It too makes me sad to think of the direction things turned a few years ago, but I know that Heavenly Father loves you, that he wants you to be happy, and that you will be blessed for your faithfulness. Love you.

    ReplyDelete

Comments are always a pleasure! Thank you!