Seeking to Become - February 2014

I've been struggling to find kindness anywhere within my heart for certain people as of late. I feel bad about it, too. My imperfection shouts for me to be more loving and tolerant. Forgiveness is something that I need and desire from others, so who am I to harbor negativity? I continually return to thoughts on how to overcome my undesirable habits of getting angry and allowing myself to swear and speak unkindly of the person(s), as well as holding onto false expectations that they want peace and harmony in the way I see it happening. This effort to be kind doesn't mean I intend to throw myself under the bus, no. But there is something to be said for turning my thoughts and words to a higher purpose whenever I find myself struggling with negative thoughts. I want to turn in the opposite direction from malice and become forgiving in the moment and move away from any tendency to let the problems sink in.

So, I looked up the term malice in the topical guide of my scriptures and found this lovely gem:

Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamor, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: and be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you. 

Ephesians 4:31-32

There are no better words of admonishment that I can find. I hope you might support me in the effort to put away negativity toward others and learn to truly forgive.