to survive

I spent the day wasting away
Wishing for nothing
Hoping for everything
The mind is wild with anticipation
The heart yearns for something new
How to make it happen
Is as elusive as the love 
That once resided in this house
Yet did it ever really exist?
Or was it a blinding façade?
I don't even care anymore
Whether it was real or not
Here and now is reality enough
To tell me that burned bridges
Change the world
And everyone in it
The smoke hasn't cleared
And I can't find my way out
Alone but I must