The first week down, anxiety, planning, and hopefully finding a groove to go.
Don't get me wrong, I'm enjoying the time. How amazing it is to have accomplished my goal and have the opportunity to move forward with my plans! However, it's such a learning curve to begin being a teacher without having the support of a supervisor and mentor anymore. I have been prepared to do this thing, and yet I find myself wishing to be back where I know and feel connected.
I'm betting that most first-year teachers go through this impostor syndrome stuff. I'd like to hear it though, so if anyone reading this knows what I'm going through, I'd be more than grateful for any reassurances that I'm normal (at least in this regard!).
And for anyone who doesn't know what I'm going through, encouragement on this anxious morning/day/night/week would really hit the spot.
Don't get me wrong, I'm enjoying the time. How amazing it is to have accomplished my goal and have the opportunity to move forward with my plans! However, it's such a learning curve to begin being a teacher without having the support of a supervisor and mentor anymore. I have been prepared to do this thing, and yet I find myself wishing to be back where I know and feel connected.
I'm betting that most first-year teachers go through this impostor syndrome stuff. I'd like to hear it though, so if anyone reading this knows what I'm going through, I'd be more than grateful for any reassurances that I'm normal (at least in this regard!).
And for anyone who doesn't know what I'm going through, encouragement on this anxious morning/day/night/week would really hit the spot.
Oh man, I read a great article last year about imposture syndrome, but I wouldn't know where to begin to find it. Yes, we do all go through it - it's totally natural. You can do this!! You're going to soar, I know it!
ReplyDeleteIt takes time to lose that "imposter syndrome" - I believe that it is a sign of caring deeply about what you do and wanting to be authentic for the kids. You are on the right track!
ReplyDeleteEvery new teacher feels this exact same way! It comes and goes in waves- sometimes you feel like you're spinning out of control, not sure of what to do, faking it, but then other times, you're in the driver's seat, feeling like you've got this. Just trust yourself, find someone in your building to confide in, and take solace in the fact that we all have gone through what you're feeling. Consider it a sort of right of passage. Good luck! :)
ReplyDeleteWell, purple just happens to be my favorite color too. Sometimes I believe it never gets easier we just get better. Just keep chugging away.
ReplyDeleteYou will make it! We are all always learning new things! As you get to know your fellow teachers, you will find someone who can be your new "mentor" when needed, and a sounding board at other times! Keep working! It will get better!
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