I don't know what to say without sounding like a pitiful mess, and I'm tired of my negative voice--written or spoken. I just want to be able to move on with life. I want to make plans and have them stick. I want my broken record of an existence to finally play a different song. I want to hear music within the lines of my life, without straining to hear. I want the hurt to end. Even if it's to experience new pain, at least it would be different hurt. I just want to feel happy without having to constantly ignore the elephant in the room of my heart. I want to know where the struggle leads. I want to feel more joy than sorrow.
Amazing words. My life and my choices over the last nine months. Yes, all those things will happen. Be careful what you wish for...
ReplyDeleteMy divorce was final 6/13. I am free, happy, alone, broke and excited again. Excited about a future that is completely unknown but one, for better or for worse I will create.
I appreciate you sharing your insight. I hope you find peace and healing within your unknown future.
Delete