a bit of small talk

A friend comes up and says: Hi, how are you? What have you been up to lately?
I say: Fine, great, or could be better (depends on what happened during the last 12 hours). I talk about school, my writing, my children.
Super common conversation, right? 

This is what I would reply if I could:

I have been trying to find my wings and words and my happy self and don't quite know how to go about it. Do you know where they went off to?

There is so much to say everyday and things just get too complicated. Not everyone can, should, or wants to deal with it when life has baggage too heavy to haul around by yourself. I am feeling like I am unclaimed baggage and there is no rightful owner.

I know it is an insanely random rambling, but I needed to just get it all out... 

5 comments:

  1. I think we all feel a little like this sometimes. As we grow older and start our own families and lose touch with friends and family over the years (sometimes by accident, sometimes on purpose) it is easy to feel like we are alone in our trials. I have suffered from depression off and on through out my life and when I am stressed out about things in life it seems to rear its ugly head. But you have to realize that your true friends really want to know how you are and how they can help. Sometimes it is a blessing for them to be able to help you in your time of need. Service for others is a great thing! Chin up :) I love your music by the way. Very soothing.

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  2. I know exactly how this feels. It was wonderful to have you say it. I just started my blog and am enjoying yours so I thought the best way to show that was to write about yours. Here is the link http://mariebartersherwaybackfromthebrink.blogspot.com/2011/08/my-baggage-is-heavy-too.html

    Marie

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  3. I am overjoyed to know someone would like my work enough to share it on their own blog and write about it. I am absolutely flattered and grateful to be appreciated. Thank you, Marie.

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  4. I can relate to the Fuller Family comment a lot..james

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  5. @Fuller Family: Service does help. It gets you outside of yourself and while lifting others, somehow everyone benefits. And I think you hit the nail on the head for me-- I need to allow others to serve and lift me once in awhile.

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