expectations

I have them.
I didn't mean to though.
At first, they crept into my heart.
But I let them stay for a good while.
Until they stayed long enough to change.
I used to expect something good out of each day.
And then I began to expect the worst because it was truth.
I relearned hope and happiness but to invest with little return.


So now, I do expect a few things:
I expect to love with my whole heart
And never be loved like that in return.
I expect to care until it hurts
And to wish I never did but I still will.
I expect to be solitary until my dying day
And never find not one person who will ever want to stay.





























14 comments:

  1. This poem is so sad. I hope that you find peace in what you're going through.

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  2. I reread your poem twice. It moved me. It saddened me. It made me dig in deep and reflect on its honesty.

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    1. Sometimes the brutality of my honesty accosts even me. I'm thankful that you stopped by and took some time to reflect on my words. It is an honor.

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  3. Thank you for clearly reflecting the way you feel now. It is a brave act. Hope is more resilient than even this I believe. Praying for your hope to be restored!

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    1. Hope is my life's breath I believe. I won't survive without it! Thank you for taking time to stop by.

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  4. This broke my heart. I have stood in that very same place, so this really spoke to me. It's very brave to admit how you truly feel deep down. It's very honest.

    I will thinking of you and hoping you find your happiness, in yourself and perhaps someday in someone else. Don't give up on finding your happiness, whatever that may be.

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  5. This broke my heart. I have stood in that very same place, so this really spoke to me. It's very brave to admit how you truly feel deep down. It's very honest.

    I will thinking of you and hoping you find your happiness, in yourself and perhaps someday in someone else. Don't give up on finding your happiness, whatever that may be.

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    1. You are wonderful to share so many of your thoughts. I appreciate it more than you know.

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  6. Here's hoping that things change. Everyone deserves a little happiness. Hope you find yours soon.

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  7. I have one more "Expect" for you to add to your list. It is on a ring I wear everyday......"Expect...Miracles!" Here's to finding happy in you!

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    1. I didn't think about putting a positive hook at the end as usual because I was in a sad frame of mind as I wrote this one. But I am thankful for your "one more." I believe in miracles, and I will watch for them to come.

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